Tuesday Javis and I went to the Guns & Roses concert. It was a total blast and I'm so glad we got to go. Wednesday we had Javis's work Christmas party, which is always fun! Thursday we had our family pictures and after we had another Christmas party. It was a packed week for sure because on top of all the activities in the evening I was babysitting during the day and Javis was working of coarse so that made us too exhausted individuals. We also found out that Liliana got her very first ear infection and she really wasn't sleeping well or feeling well at all. So all of this was adding up fast. I also was a emotional mess all week which didn't help.
Last week my best friend and neighbor was planned to be induced and I was so very excited for her. I had thrown her a baby shower and I was so ready to finally meet her little boy and get to hold him. So we would talk about how I had this busy schedule planned but that I would also have to fit in time to come and see him, of coarse. I was so so excited for her, she had had a painful pregnancy and I knew how hard it had been for her.
He was born on Wednesday December 7th and was healthy, I was so excited I cant even explain. I ended up hearing from her the next day saying that her baby was extremely sick & that he was in the nicu, they were running test but at the time they didn't know what was wrong. I was so worried, I cant even imagine how that would feel. I must have checked my phone a thousand times wondering how they were doing. Later she told me that he had Group B Strep and that he was in critical condition. My heart broke for her but I continued to comfort her and believed that it would be okay and that they would be taking him home. The whole time he was in the nicu she kept me posted on how he was doing.. it felt horrible to know that not only was the precious little boy sick and I couldn't do anything but that my best friend was going threw this pain and that I couldn't be by her side. We found out very early Tuesday morning that he had passed. It was the worst feeling I have ever felt. So many emotions were running threw me, I was mad, upset, confused and so many other extreme feelings. All week long we have had all these plans but nothing really mattered because deep down I was broken inside for my best friend had just lost her beautiful child. I had been fighting so many feelings all week, wanting to be there for her but knowing that that time isn't here yet. They are grieving just like anyone would and I have been respecting that for I know that is what she truly needs. Friday I went to the showing with another neighbor and close friend. And Saturday Javis and I went to the funeral and burial. Both parents spoke such beautiful talks that touched my heart and gave me comfort that they will be with him again and that this is not the end.There was a moment when I saw my beautiful friend speaking to her three year old and her face was glowing, she was glowing. As if angles where surrounding her. I can't exactly explain it but it gave me so much peace. I knew at that moment that she was not alone. I have never experience the death of anyone close to me, so it was hard for me to do. But not all things are easy in life and not all things are made for us to understand. My believes have been tested this week, and I have felt many feelings for this wonderful family. I do know that they are strong, amazing people who where chosen to be parents to this beautiful loving boy so that he could get his body and return to our heavenly father.
I share this so that maybe everyone can be reminded to hug our children a little tighter every night. To not take anything for granite, that life is beautiful and that we are blessed with many many things each and every one of us. My dear friend Stephanie is one of the biggest blessings in my life and I am extremely grateful for her and her family.
